The Start of Something Big (con't)

So I've now been in my relationship for two months now, and already we have another issue to add onto our small list. I don't have a car, now I lost my job, and although we did good at taming our urges, without putting blame on any one person, we both let them get the best of us. I was still going through my daily procedure of reading my bible and daily readings, working out in the morning and night, and simply trying to live the right way, but any relationship I have whether it be family, close friends, and women, will always be a true test for me. I am truly unselfish and don't like to let people down. So if I have something or can do something for someone, it's most likely done. Doesn't matter what the cost or lost may be to me, more times than many, if it was possible for me to do I do it. So in that said, it wasn't a continuous thing, one reason being we were still in a distant relationship, but I still held my ground for the most part. Special occasions were what they were, so I let my guard down for those times.
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Holidays for me are a big thing because I LOVE FAMILY, PERIOD. Being in a relationship can be stressful sometimes because you now have an extended family that you are now involved with and have to be respectful of the situation you are in. Me being away from Philly made the holidays an even bigger deal to me because it wasn't like I could just take a 5-15 minute trip and see my family members here and there, so these were times where I could just chill, talk and enjoy being around my family, which is something I seriously appreciate. Rather than go into detail on what happened and to put blame on anyone, we were obviously rookies at this holiday thing and visiting multiple houses and doing stuff, so there were problems but I eventually got over them. I never knew if she really understood why I was upset til this day, but hey I guess it really doesn't matter now.
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Keeping on the same theme of the holidays and us being rookies with the situation, I will totally admit on this one that I may have been wrong, but I'll let you all be the judge. New years to me was just another reason to party and be with friends, that's really it. It never was a relationship holiday, yea I understand people kiss at the turn of the new year, one thing I never really understood, but so be it, to me it was another reason just to party. My friends had a tradition of getting out of the city, it was just something we did. I didn't really plan on going this year, due to my budget, so I really wasn't going to make any plans. Turns out my friends already paid for everything for me and didn't let me know. Once again, I didn't have any plans and they paid for everything in advance. So when I found out I let Rita know and she didn't have it in her budget at the time to come, so she got upset that I was still considering going. Well here's my situation, I could have went, had a great time with my friends, or I could have stayed in philly, with my lady and not did much at all and let my friends money go to waste. I don't like to waste things by the way, so let that be a side note. So yes, I went had fun and she went to church and hung out with her family and was upset because she told me she was embarrassed not to be doing anything. I thought what she did was nice but we had different views.
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January pretty much flew by with my doing things from time to time to try and make up for upsetting her and another holiday which I don't participate in approached. At this time, she now had her own place with her cousin and I had my car, so we saw each other more around this time as well. Most people know my philosophy on Valentines day and know that I really don't want to take part in such nonsense. Of course being in a relationship, where both parties don't agree can be an issue. Rather than try and change my views she just tried to make sure we would at least be together, which of course following my philosophy, if I can do it, so shall it be done. Well I don't fully remember why I got to her place so late, but she ended up cooking dinner, which was something I always appreciated but probably never showed how much I truly appreciated it, and we just chilled and fell asleep to a movie.
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At this point, I still didn't have a job, and I was battling with a lot of things at this time, so with everyone agreeing, I ended up looking for a job towards the end of the month. This time around, I wasn't just going to do any old job, I was only going to do something that I really believed in or really wanted to do, those were my only interest. The next couple of months would really teach me a lot of things about myself and about life itself and will stick to me forever.
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"let your light shine before men." (matthew 5:16)
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To be con't...