Random Thought

So I was on the bus on my way to work today and as usual I had a buncha thoughts go through my head, some of the repeated thoughts and reminders due to the repeated things I see and pass on my 3 hour trip to work, yea, 3 hours. So anyways, the whole baby(ies) or child(ren) on the bus thing. I'm not digging that. Now I hope nobody feels disrespected in any way, these are my opinions on how I feel not an insult or anything of that nature. Here's the thing, I can understand in a busy city like New York where EVERYBODY basically takes public transportation, seeing kids and babies on public transportation. That to me is a tad bit different. I just get rubbed the wrong way when I see it. What gets to me even more is that it always seems to be the mother with the kid(s) and not the father. I always ask myself, well where is he? At work hopefully, but maybe that's just hopeful thinking. Many of you might say, why do I care? Simply because that kid is going to grow up one way or another and I'd rather them grow up as taken care of as possible because sooner or later they might be in a position to take care of us. Now does getting on public transportation mean your not taking care of, not by any means. But if you were on public transportation because one, mommy and daddy aint together and daddy aint going out his way so you didn't, as a kid you might feel slanted. Would feel even more slanted if they were still together and he aint feel like going out his way. Now if he couldn't do anything to change that, then so be it. That brings me to my next point.

In high school as we all do I was mapping out my life (LOL) and how I saw it happening. Outta school by 22, child by 23, house by 24, I'm 25, and nope, haven't completed not a one. Never cared about a diploma so if I didn't get it by default that was that. As far as a house and a child, yea right. I'm still having a hard enough time spoiling myself, I just really don't know how to do it. Anytime I actually do have extra money I spend it on one of two things. Other people or other ways to make money. Some people say stupid, I say that's just the two best things I could imagine. Unselfish in one sense and foreseeing in the other. I just can't see me having a kid first of all out of marriage. In order to get married as I see it now, I have to have my own place, and have a financially stable life. I'm not bringing any of my debt into a marriage, I refuse to. Only way that will happen is if our debt is about the same. As far as the house, well the debt covers that. Right now the rent I pay for our house could easily be a mortgage payment plus some utilities, but when your credit is bad, what can you do? So right now, I'm in the process of doing that which is most important, improving my relationship with God, re-establishing my credit by paying off debt, and living a pretty simple life. As far as relationships goes, I've always believed you should be friends before anything in a relationship, and if a female can't go for that, no problem, my Bible will keep me company.