The Start of Something Big (con't)

So with everything seeming to be going in the right direction, I had no true complaints. I could have complained about things but I learned to focus on what I can and can't control, which limited the possibility for complaint to arise. If it was something I could control then it would be on me to get the situation fixed and or worked on. If it was something I couldn't control then I would simply put it in God's hand. So life became somewhat easier for me at this time. I unfortunately stopped reading my bible as much as I did when I was working. I still prayed but I really wasn't living the way in which a saved person is suppose to. Thing is, I wasn't technically saved. When you're a kid and your parents take you to church everyday against your will, then honestly, it wasn't your choice to be in the house of the Lord, it was theirs. Now when the time comes that you want to go, and you understand everything in which why you are there, then at that time when you decide you want to give yourself unto the Lord are you truly saved. This leads me to the next epic moment in my life.

Received a phone call from my mother which was nothing new, she called me all the time. This time around was an unfortunate one. Out of no where, my aunt passed of a heart attack. So yes, I was greatly shocked because I was so confused. Everything appeared to be going so well in my life, I was starting to believe in God and I figured because of that, my life would simply continue to get better. In the beginning they started to somehow get worst before getting better, but as they got better and I was acknowledging Him more, so when this happened, I really didn't understand. Rather than be depressed I simply prayed and it really helped because I was upset, but I really wasn't that depressed, I simply believed that their has to be a reason for this.

So the funeral day approaches and we are at the church for the viewing and everything and there is where it happened. As the minister spoke, I realized more and more as he spoke why God had taken my aunt back. As we all are tools, he needed to take this one back to accomplish some things that wouldn't have been accomplished probably any other way. What you didn't know about the background is that at this time my family was in turmoil to say the least. Many members weren't talking to one another for whatever the reason and we weren't as close knit as we always were. I didn't realize everything because I was away, but when I did come home things did seem a bit off. Outside of that, as the minister continued to preach on my aunt's passing, he spoke on how mourning her wasn't God's purpose; God took her back to achieve things that weren't going to get achieved any other way. Bringing our family back together, reminding us that family is the most important thing on this earth, and most importantly, I NEVER ATTENDED CHURCH AT SCHOOL. So here was my moment to confess my love, and give myself to God and that's exactly what happened. So I will always remember my aunt's passing, because God took her back for me and my family's sake. There is always a silver lining...

To be con't...