So here I am, a child of God and feeling childish might I say. I truly felt different, like a ton was lifted off my back. Well, sad enough to say, that good feeling may have lasted but me living the right way didn't. While I technically didn't feel as though I was doing anything wrong and I had good intentions, I still wasn't living by His word. Now I realize this was one of the greatest lessons I would eventually learn. Knowing Christ, acknowledging Him and still not living by His word; completely disrespectful, ignorant and simply asking for trouble to say the least.
When I got back to school I was having fun but more so in a different way. With my new found free time I was pushing business at a rapid pace. Nothing else to me really mattered. I had a goal and I was going to reach it no matter what. I had great success by the time the end of the school year came. While my formal education might have suffered, I felt as though my relationships, my business, and my current status was great. I was going to be moving into a nice house soon, still didn't have much drama in my life as far as the females I talk to, business was booming, and I couldn't see anything wrong with where my life was headed. Unfortunately, the problem was I was blinded by the wrong things and not focused on God and living the right way and I eventually had to pay the price.
Summer came and business came to a halt. No matter what new tactics or old ones I refurbished, nothing worked. My ex ended up moving out of her family's house and of course ended up staying with me. So I was in a house with my brother and a friend who paid to be there along with my friend/business partner who was crashing at my place and my ex. So you could say it was crowded, but really it wouldn't have been if my friend didn't sleep in the living room on his air mattress. Anyways, that summer turned into one long event of giving into temptations. Needless to say, I ended up needing to get a job at the end of the summer. Lost my car, and when school started my ex eventually found out she couldn't return sending her back to my house.
So the new school year starts with me living in a very nice house with my housemates and my ex. I have a full time job, am taking classes part-time paying out of pocket, and am still pushing business. Couldn't really talk to other females with my ex living with me because I wasn't going to be that disrespectful. At the end of the day I did want to eventually be with her so this was basically a test run, even though when we were together and I stayed at her apartment, it didn't work out than. I was seeing if things would be different this time around. This would be an interesting year either way it went, and it proved to be one of the most craziest in my life.
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